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Dawson's
Creek 12..
Look. It's
like this. Most people, when they get to college, feel really insecure.
It seems like everybody around them knows so much more. So they
race to try to catch up, pretend to know things, instead of slowing
down to actually learn them. Because they don't realize that the
discomfort of uncertainty is the most precious part of the experience.
See, if you can feel comfortable... not knowing, you can learn anything,
ANYTHING. And if not, well, then you've stopped before you've begun.
I don't mind
you kissing me if it's because you want to kiss me, not for revenge
or to help you forget someone else. Whatever happened between you
guys, you're gonna have to deal with it. Yourself. Just -- just
you.
I have all these feelings -- these weird feelings -- and I've had
this burning desire to express them. But I can't. I just can't.
And these feelings -- they're trapped -- they're like stuck in my
heart... And I just feel so lonely."
I'm not that
girl anymore. I never really was. And I'm -- I'm not that white-as-snow
image you've got, either. I'm somewhere in between. And I'm -- I'm
just trying to figure it out
I mean, you're
still carrying around this huge torch for her that has no hope of
extinguishing itself any time too soon
I do have perception
disorder. Let's just say, I'm geared to respond to life in a certain
way and you say I don't respond like a typical adolescent, and you're
right, I don't, but emotionally, I do. I always have. I am very
much my age emotionally, maybe even younger. And my feelings are
in constant conflict with my overachieving self-aware brain and
it's just a constant battle. And that's what's driving me crazy
So I keep on waiting for my feelings to catch up so maybe I can
finally grow up so I can finally get over Joey or accept that my
parents may or may not work things out, but I think I have it backwards.
In order to change my feelings I first have to change my actions
because that's the only way somebody can change how they feel
I'm just not
all there. I mean, I can -- I can analyze somebody else until the
cows wander home, but as soon as I turn all that indulgent perception
on myself, it's like I completely lose connection between my heart
and my head. It's like the two are incompatible, and I -- I can't
get it together. And I really wish I could, because I'm so scared
of what might happen if I don't. I, Does this make any sense to
you at all?
I guess I just
want you to know that I'm not going to hold you to anything we've
said in the past. I want you to live your life and be happy and
enjoy everything that goes along with that.
Pacey:
When she's around, I just feel more... I feel more alive. I think
people underestimate how important that is.
Jen: I think they overestimate it, too. I mean,
as much as you want to, you can't rely on someone else to make you
feel alive. It's an inside job.
I need to go
on with my life. Go back to college. Figure out who I am, and what
I want. This is not my place. Not here, and not with you.
There's not a single dramatic storyline in existence that Shakespeare
didn't conquer first. Family revenge, political intrigue, the great
gender battle. The guy mapped it all out for us, and what was his
parting lesson? What genre of all genres did he finally arrive at
after years of toil and sacrifice? Tragedy.
Gail: Well, honey, I'm concerned about you. Ever
since your breakup with Joey, you haven't said one word about it.
Dawson...you haven't even wallowed.
Dawson: What good is wallowing? All the wallowing
in the world doesn't bring somebody
back.
Gail: Wallowing isn't about getting them back.
It isn't about them at all, it's about you, and
learning to allow yourself the few meager advantages of being the
dumpee.
Dawson: Advantages?
Gail: Sure, like allowing yourself to stuff your
face with a lifetime supply of red licorice and doughnuts, or a
newfound appreciation for country music.
Dawson: Like an excuse to watch the last scene
from Field of Dreams?
Gail: Acquiring the necessary pain to write bad,
bitter poetry.
Dawson: A reason to scowl.
Gail: A reason to bitch!
Dawson: Work out aggression!
Gail: Yes! You see, when you think about it, honey,
every inch of pain that touches you makes you a deeper, more real
individual. Whether you're 16 or...slightly older.
Dawson: So it doesn't get any easier?
Gail: Nope. You just go to bed earlier.
Theres a part
of me that's gonna be in love with you for the rest of my life.
I'm afraid
that I'm not enough for you, and I never will be, and if I do this,
you'll realize that you've grown way beyond me and I'm just going
to lose you again.
Like all great
romantics, Shakespeare realized love was a lot more likely to end
with a bunch of dead Danish people than with a kiss
I have realized
that every time i'm around you, I'm happy
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