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Dawson's
Creek 13...
Pacey, I wanted
to see Dawson tonight, not because for 4 months of my life he was
my boyfriend. Because for the better part of my life, he was my
friend. And as my friend, I hurt him deeply. And living me with
that fact has caused me no small amount of guilt over the past 3
months. So yes, I have been preoccupied. And it has made my mind
wander. But my heart. That's a fixed point.
3 months of riding the open waters couldn't shake it. I'll be damned
if I let your insecurities shake it. My heart never left this boat.
It never left you. As far as I can see, it's not going to anytime
soon.
Joey:
Well, I expected you to at least say good-bye.
Pacey: Oh, yeah, the good-bye scene. Played that
one over a thousand times in my head. I come to you, heart in hand,
and announce my plans. You look at me, pained, but then, of course,
the potter sarcasm kicks in and I leave never getting what I came
for.
Joey: What is that, Pacey?
Pacey: You never ask me to stay. Ever.
you're unbelievable.
I mean, as soon as I think I've got you all figured out, you go
and you do something so outrageous that, it completely challenges
me in a way that no one else would even think of. In case I don't
say it enough, thank you.
Joey:
Of all the people to see me like this, it had to be you.
Pacey: You know, it's a new year. Who knows? You
and I might even become friends.
Joey: Pacey... I'm upset enough as it is.
Look, my point
is is that I don't think that everybody meets the love of their
life when they're a teenager. Or when they're 25. Or even when they're
35. But that doesn't mean that you stop looking and hoping. You
know, 'cause you will meet that person, and when you do, I guess
you know it.
A single moment
of true joy is more powerful than a lifetime of sorrow.
Joey:
Then I'm probably the last person you want to see.
Dawson: You're a lot of things, Joey, but you're
never the last person I wanna see.
Well, I should probably just start first, that you, Josephine Potter,
have just wrecked me. In the best possible way, you have absolutely
wrecked me. Because you see, I fell in love with you, knowing that
there was never any possibility of being with you. Knowing full
well that a sizeable chunk of your heart would always be wrapped
up in our friend, Dawson. And that much was actually okay with me.
Right up to the point that you chose me. Cause then you just turned
everything on it's head. And I got everything that I wanted, and
from that day forward, I've just been a wreck.
Yeah, she is
pretty. She is very, very pretty. She's actually the kind of pretty
that gives you butterflies, you know what I mean?
Sex is never
innocent. It’s intense, its passionate, and sometimes it can
be life altering-but it is never innocent
I have discovered
perfection obtained is a discomforting state and I get restless.
What do you do when everything is right? When everything is just
the way you want it to be? I want for nothing, and that leaves me
feeling empty.. not wanting. And I just want to want again
Wanna know
something Miss Josephine Potter? I think the world may just surprise
you yet. I mean you fall in love and it doesn't work out and you
think that it will never happen again, but it does. Believe me,
it does. In the strangest of places.
You know who
that guy you reacted like is gonna be in ten years, Pace? The person
who knows me best. Dawson knows my past... My future lies with you
Joey:
I want to be with you, Pacey. I want to stay and be with you.
Pacey: Well, if you want to be with me, than staying
here would be a really stupid idea, considering I don't plan to
be here. I plan to be wherever you are.
Pacey:
I'm just asking a simple question, Dawson. You and Joey... she's
not your girlfriend anymore.
Dawson: You're right, she's not.
Pacey: Right, so then why are we having this conversation?
You see where I'm going with this? I mean, you're the same guy who
told me a couple weeks ago that the two of you just needed to go
your separate ways.
Dawson: Yeah, we do need to go our separate ways.
It just never occurred to me…
Pacey: That what? That she would actually go her
separate way, too? Or perhaps it didn't occur to you that her separate
way would include a stopover at me, is that what it is? God, man!
This is the way it always is with you! You talk and talk, but you
don't listen to yourself. You say you're over her, but you're not.
They're just words, they don't mean anything to you.
Dawson: You don't know what you're talking about.
Pacey: Look at that girl, Dawson. (he motions to
Joey who is dancing with some older man) Just take a good look.
She's a freaking goddess, man. How long did you think it was gonna
be before some guy comes along and is interested in her? I mean,
really, dude! And when that happens, what are you gonna do?
Dawson: I'm just gonna take it all as it comes.
Pacey: You're gonna take it as it comes. Oh great,
well perhaps you should start figuring out right now because the
guy that comes along is not gonna be your best friend and he's not
gonna ask for your permission. The guy that comes along is gonna
take one look at that woman and then just cut right in on ya.
Pacey: No. Cause alcohol, you know, it has that
effect on problems it just never solves them. Ever. And I would
hate to think I fell in love with a moron.
Joey: You're in love with me, huh?
Pacey: Well not currently, no. Right now you're
just some crazy drunk girl
The whole thing
was her fault. I mean, she told me that I was the one she thinks
about. You know? Me. And then she gives me this look. What was I
supposed to do? Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for
her to give me that look
You don't understand.
I've... I've spent years building this... This complex series of--of
booby traps so that...Nobody would ever get too close. and then
you came along... With that big beating heart of yours, and... You
broke all those walls down, and it's just really scary. I mean...
What if I lose you?
Pacey:
I jus-- I can't keep on kissing you, jo.
Joey: What do you mean?
Pacey: I mean just that. I can't keep
on kissing you. All right? I've done it twice now.
I can't be the one that's always initiating this. I can't be the
one who's always giving you the answers. look at me, Joey.
Joey: I can’t.
Pacey: Please. If you felt... Even one shred...
Of what I feel for you... Then we wouldn't be standing here having
this conversation.
Joey:
But, Dawson, I want us to still be friends, and I want to know that
you don't hate me—
Dawson: They're just words, Joey. They're just
words. 'Cause after you're done dispensing your pleasantries here,
you're gonna turn around and you're gonna walk away from me. Aren't
you?
Joey: I have to, otherwise, I'll never know.
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